SO .. i cant really sleep.. which sucks because i have to work tomorrow.. So i thought i would write a blog.
I keep hearing and reading stories about a guy i used to consider a close mate.it bums me out coz the stories i am hearing are pretty serious accusation of criminal offences.
I think it is really weird when you think you know someone, but it turns out they are completely not what you thought.
Humanity and emotions are the strangest things. Sometimes i think i will never understand emotions.. as stoic as i normally am with my emotions i think 2008 was probably the most emotional year for me ever.. i made and lost friends.. i broke up, got together, had breaks from, got blown off by, got hurt, loved, hated, acted vengeafully, trusted too much, didnt trust enough, rushed in, hesitated, felt hurt, hurt others, it was such a bizarre year.. im still not sure how i got through it.
this year is going to be the year of honesty and building bridges.. Not that im ever dishonest, but i need to start being true to myself and treating myself well. I am so sick of beating myself up over decisions ive made, or ways ive acted.. its time to 1. stop putting myself in those situtations and 2. deal with it when it happens.
I think that already this year i may have made a stupid mistake, but then i think about how its making me feel.. and i know that 100% it is right.. regardless of the consequences.
soo thumbs down to insomnia.. im going to take some drugs and sleep
